I find the internet to be an overall good place–the ability to connect with so many like-minded people is wonderful! But it’s so easy to be sucked into mindless scrolling through Instagram and making endless comparisons. It’s easy to say “one more minute” and look up to find an hour has gone by. It’s too easy to have the edge of your consciousness be constantly pulled towards something else. I strive to be present in life and not distracted, but it’s hard to do when you’re constantly tethered to something that promises to connect but in fact can take away the joy in the everyday.
So I’ve made a decision. I’m putting my phone and computer away during my non-working hours, and I’m going to try to put down my phone in the evenings, too. Life is so short and so precious–everything happening around the world affirms that–and I don’t want to spend all of it looking into a screen.
I found my digital camera the other day when spring cleaning, and I’ve decided to start writing my blog posts longhand. That will hopefully let me be present in all parts of my life–focusing on one thing at a time, instead of feeling myself scattered in a dozen competing directions. Even typing this blog post, I find myself tempted to click over to Instagram or Facebook. Why? I just need to do one thing at a time, and embrace that. I think about the days of childhood where I would take a stack of books outside in the backyard, or climb up the tree in my cousin’s yard when spending the summers with them, and just read, and read, and read. It would take a great deal to pull my attention away from that level of absorption. Of course life can’t always be lived like that, but I see my child discovering the true joys of a good book series for the first time, the complete and utter sinking into a new world, and I remember how wonderful that feels, that completeness above all. So that’s what I’m trying to recapture. Being present in the moment, completely.
How do you manage to do this in your life, in our world today?